These are my diarised series of ‘thought notes’ that I Whatsapp’d to myself from August 2025 -January 2026, (a blogging hiatus lasting 5 months). Sometimes a one liner. Sometimes an essay. All raw, unabated truth. Any similiarities to persons living or dead is purely coincidental…
4 September 2025:
Felt really let down by P. It triggered wounds of not being important enough and unsupported. I cried. It feels as though he’s rushing and bending over backward to help others he hardley know and leaving my stuff by the wayside. Got pissy with him over the phone. I defended myself saying I’ve got every right to when I’ve worked closely with him all this time yet he’s bending over backward with people he barely knows. Been feeling very sensitive and vulnerable. But a part of me was thinking that it’s not what the other person does it’s how I react from within, how I internalise it and how it triggers me. I’m feeling so sensitive and alone and unvalued that maybe I see everyone like that?
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