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I was really worried after I split from The Narc in Dec 2023 that I wouldn’t know how to spot another one, and that another would surreptitiously infiltrate itself into my life again to wreak havoc. Well I’m quite pleased with myself. My narc-dar (that’s a narc radar) seems to be working; I’ve spotted and Read more
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I sat down to write something else but have been massively triggered by everything that someone else is doing and being and everything I’m not. I’m not going to say who I’ve looked at and what I’ve read. I am in tears and I weep the tears of sorrow and sadness and regret and resentment Read more
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So today I had a hypnotherapy session with a new therapist. I really connected with her over the phone last week (although I was a blubbering mess when I phoned her). She has a spiritual base and understanding like me so I thought we’d be a good fit and I was right. We seem to Read more
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Feeling more resilient I confronted JKR the ‘friend’ who suddenly dumped me out of the blue (after I asked her partner for some support after splitting with The Narc). It was a situation I didn’t see coming when she cut me off overnight, which hit me like a fast train and sent me reeling from Read more
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So I couldn’t write yesterday feeling as flat as pancake and completely deflated after getting really stressed out trying to catch my cat to get him in. I think he’s a little unwell (he’s eating, but not like he normally does) and was being a total PITA (pain in the ass) trying to get him Read more
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I’m struggling to write today. I feel flat. My beloved pet cat has stressed me out to the max acting like a spoilt teenager (although he’s 7 so that makes him 49 in human years). I haven’t written for a few days and pissed off as I made a commitment to myself to write every Read more
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Today I feel strangely together and resilient, much more myself. I haven’t felt this strong and together in literally months and I’m trying to figure out what’s changed. Of course I’ve started this blog thing, which is for me to document my healing journey from childhood trauma and write on here daily. Seriously, I have Read more
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I had a fairweather friend over for dinner back in late March. I say fairweather because I had a light bulb moment that night, well, it was more like a stark realisation, a sharp clip around the ear of what a closed book she really is and how little I know about her, considering I’ve Read more
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I had a cold shower again this morning and did my pranayama (I hate the term “breath work”) It’s fucking pranayama, why don’t people use the correct terminology and give it the credence it deserves???? And I do the funny eye movements (look it up online, resetting the vagus nerve through eye movements). Those things Read more
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I’m not going to tell anyone my name, who I am, where I live etc. It’s inconsequential. Anonymity in a digital world is priceless. A writer is what I should have become all my life and a huge part of me that I left on the shelf at 16-ish, (because I was angry with the Read more
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