These are my diarised series of ‘thought notes’ that I Whatsapp’d to myself from August 2025 -January 2026, (a blogging hiatus lasting 5 months). Sometimes a one liner. Sometimes an essay. All raw, unabated truth. Any similiarities to persons living or dead is purely coincidental…
2 October 2025
I just seem to be attracting fights right now. I’m not in the right energy space. That cat bitch woman doesn’t want to pay me fuel money she promised for taking the cat and the kitten to the rescue centre. That was a 3 hour round trip. Now the unhinged pig is creating drama trying to say that she didn’t offer or agree to pay me when it’s right there in her text messages to read. What is it with these psychos? And I can’t believe I’ve got yet another toxic situation in my life to deal with as if this year wasn’t enough. You do these narcs a a favour and they have the gall to spin the whole situation around on you trying to play the pity card when I’ve just done a 120 mile round-trip for nothing. I could have walked away but I threatened her with a ultimatum via text. Maybe I shouldn’t have but that justice streak in me is too strong and the feeling of not allowing anyone to walk all over me. So I basically said pay me or I’ll file a small claim. And the abusive language has already started from her. I know it’s only £20-30 but it’s the principle that counts. Her attitude towards me is vile. Reminds me of the narc I was involved with. They are all the same. Get them to own up to something they’ve said or take responsibility for something they promised and rather than be an adult they throw tantrums as if they have the right to throw tantrums EVEN THOUGH you’ve just done a favour for them that’s cost you. Zero accountability. The problem is why do I keep attracting toxic situations and fights? What is it about me? Is it me? I just want some peace. But I can’t walk away from these toxic dramas when they arise. Walking away feels defeatist, like they’ve won and I’ve lost. And if no one stands up to these bullies, then they’ll keep on behaving this way, walking over every good person, sniffing out weakness and trying to exploit it. But a lunatic will always be a lunatic. A psycho will always be a psycho. A narc will always be a narc. They don’t learn lessons. They are soul-less demonic entities. The missing link between those of us with heart and soul. Maybe I shouldn’t need to disturb my inner peace with scum like them….
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