trauma
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I am re-reading, in my opinion, a very good book that I bought a few months ago when the realisation hit me that I have a mountain of unresolved trauma to heal. It’s a secret read. Not one of these hyped-up, over marketed, polished Hay House authors (that is all about them, their image and… Read more
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I’ve read that being mentally scattered or just plain scatty is a by product of a fucked up, deregulated nervous system from early trauma It’s how I feel this morning. Scatty, scattered and totally ADHD, where I can’t focus on my morning yoga and exercise routine (because my mind is anxious racing around everywhere). You’d… Read more
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I started writing this post a week ago, felt like shit as I was going on and on about nothing and then committed it to the drafts bin because it felt like I was walking through treacle. I mustered up the energy that day to open my lap top and write. I’m wasn’t finding it… Read more
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I was really worried after I split from my narc in Dec 2023 that I wouldn’t know how to spot another narc and that another would surreptitiously infiltrate itself into my life again to wreak havoc. Well I’m quite pleased with myself. I’ve spotted someone whom I was in a pseudo-friendship with, I say pseudo… Read more
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I sat down to write something else but have been massively triggered by everything that someone else is doing and being and everything I’m not. I’m not going to say who I’ve looked at and what I’ve read. I am in tears and I weep the tears of sorrow and sadness and regret and resentment… Read more
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So today I had a hypnotherapy session with a new therapist. I really connected with her over the phone last week (although I was a blubbering mess when I phoned her). She has a spiritual base and understanding like me so I thought we’d be a good fit and I was right. We seem to… Read more
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Feeling more resilient I confronted JKR the ‘friend’ who suddenly dumped me out of the blue after I asked her partner for some support with a difficult situation. The situation I didn’t see coming that hit me like a fast train and reeling from the emotional pain. It was a shock to the system and… Read more
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So I couldn’t write yesterday feeling as flat as pancake and completely deflated after getting really stressed out trying to catch my cat to get him in. I think he’s a little unwell (he’s eating, but not like he normally does) and was being a total PITA (pain in the ass) trying to get him… Read more
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I’m struggling to write today. I feel flat. My beloved pet cat has stressed me out to the max acting like a spoilt teenager (although he’s 7 so that makes him 49 in human years). I haven’t written for a few days and pissed off as I made a commitment to myself to write every… Read more
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Today I feel strangely together and resilient, much more myself. I haven’t felt this strong and together in literally months and I’m trying to figure out what’s changed. Of course I’ve started this blog thing, which is for me to document my healing journey from childhood trauma and write on here daily. Seriously, I have… Read more